Anxiety is an irrational fear held over a potential threat, but where there is no evidence to prove that this threat may ever materialise.
Firstly I have, until now, confused my anxiety with depression. I have suffered with depression for over 10 years, however, when I have sudden bouts, it comes with unexplained and unwanted extras. They go hand in hand, at least in my case, my anxiety makes me feel a complete lack of motivation and quite simply, depressed.
I completely shut out people when my anxiety strikes. It’s all I can think about and I don’t know how to tell the people closest to me what I am feeling. This is because it isn’t always justified.
My anxiety comes in the form of negative adrenaline – A rush, a lump in my throat and just a general bad feeling. It continues through the night and this means my sleep is interrupted, leaving me very tired. This has a further knock on affect, causing a lack of appetite and eventually nausea.
Where people may respond to the same situation relatively normally, in my case certain situations trigger a reaction somewhat illogical. It causes me to blow the situation out of proportion, making it a bigger deal than it really is. This sends me into a downward spiral.
My attempt to ease my anxiety results in trying to justify my worries. I might replay a scenario over and over in my head or search the internet desperately for “answers”.
But this is usually counter productive and causes more injury. My anxiety, essentially, takes over me.
Any mental health issue is hard to live with, if you have any tips on how you deal with anxiety, please leave a comment below.
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